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Wednesday, 03 October 2007
This is the story of my illness of squizofrenia. By Ann Cole. To hear it click here
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It started in the 1980s when my children were small and i was withWith my first husband, i would sit indoors at night when everything else was quiet and i would hear the sound of a tot of people whispering, i couldnít make out what they were saying but it was quite loud, and it sounded as if it came from out of the window, of course i wondered why It was happening, but i didnít for one moment think that i was the only one who could hear it. And i didnít think i might be ill. And i also thought it was a bit of an annoyance, then.
In the earrly nineties we moved house and i started hearing noises at night out of the bedroom window, it was not anything specific, it was a hissing noise. It talked to my husband about it and he said he thought it e was coming from the Hospital central heating system. I accepted this explanation and did not think too much of it.
A few years later i had a lot Of trouble my marriage broke up and my children were taken Into care. I was really upset by this. It was when i was on my own that i startes hearing voices, they said things like ‘Im watching you, donít think you can get away from me, Im making sure you donít get up to anything’. Well knew this wasnít right, i heard it very often and sometimed the voices sounded like people i knew. i felt aggrieved that it was happening to me. Sometimes the voices were inside my flat. And sometimes they came from outside and i kept looking Out of the window to see who was out there, but there usually Was not anyone there.
And they started happening during The day as well as the night. One time the voice said which Sounded like someone i knew that i was not invited Because i had been bad, i started thinking that it Definitly was not right so i went to the doctor andTold him about it, and he refered me to the munroClinic which became the york clinic, when i started going there they asked lots of questions. I told them what i Was going through, they gave me tablets and i had threeMomthly appointments, a nurse used to come and see me at my home, after a while she told me about the castle day centre,I said iwould like to try it and she refered me there,The tablets helped a lot and after a while the voices dissappered, i sometimes had relapses but after a whileThey went away, after i had been going to the castle forAbout a month the nurse stopped coming, but i kept having appointments at the clinic, i still go to the clinic butI have not had v oiced for aboiut ten years now, i do not Attend castle day anymore,